Solitude.

I wrote this on Sunday night... 26/09

Its one of those nights when everything seems to be off handedly random. On the backdrop of last night's rad-ness, tonight is intensely err….. All my guys are in some form of mental imbalance. One is acutely indifferent yet frustrated by his laptop, another is bored to a state of slight depression. Yet another one is extremely frustrated as he can't focus enough to get any work done. Me? I just want to be alone!

My last two tweets read, "I WANT YOU PEOPLE OUT OF MY LIFE and ALL OF YOU SHOULD LEAVE ME ALONE."

Yeah, I've felt this way before several times. We all do feel like that sometimes. We want some peace and quiet and solitude and some alone time. But that happens when we're stressed out- at least, that's the case for me sha. But I really can't say I've been stressed out at all. Infact, I've done absolutely nothing in the past 2 or 3 months. I didn't break a sweat over resumption or anything like that. There have been no classes or assignments.

There's really nothing stressful going on. Then why the hell am I wanting so much solitude.

Forget that while I was home, I was alone with my ipod, phone and laptop uninterrupted from 11pm till about 3am daily. I tweeted, listened critically to all the newly added songs and thought a bit about everything. I even sat on the balcony one night- Denny Crane & Alan Shore style.  Forget that I fought really hard for that solitude- setting my instant messenger appearances to permanently invisible on "pidgin". During the day, my phone was also often set to offline mode. When it was however on the network, I went ahead to refuse to pick calls from numbers that weren't stored among my contacts. I wanted to be away from many people…and I won the solitude battle.

Now, I'm here. I do enjoy hanging out with my friends. Maybe I even love em…#nohomo.. We really do have rad times and we think along the same line often times and have similar priorities.

Besides them however, there's the other random bunch who I have to get along with. Don't go jumping into any conclusions. I'm generally cool with people and I try to respect everyone and live peaceably with everyone. I've learnt not to be prejudicial or any of that shit. However, they're still the random bunch. I think it’s the random bunch that's itching me and my guys tonight. But what the hell, there's not much we can do. #torresshrug!