Solitude.

I wrote this on Sunday night... 26/09

Its one of those nights when everything seems to be off handedly random. On the backdrop of last night's rad-ness, tonight is intensely err….. All my guys are in some form of mental imbalance. One is acutely indifferent yet frustrated by his laptop, another is bored to a state of slight depression. Yet another one is extremely frustrated as he can't focus enough to get any work done. Me? I just want to be alone!

My last two tweets read, "I WANT YOU PEOPLE OUT OF MY LIFE and ALL OF YOU SHOULD LEAVE ME ALONE."

Yeah, I've felt this way before several times. We all do feel like that sometimes. We want some peace and quiet and solitude and some alone time. But that happens when we're stressed out- at least, that's the case for me sha. But I really can't say I've been stressed out at all. Infact, I've done absolutely nothing in the past 2 or 3 months. I didn't break a sweat over resumption or anything like that. There have been no classes or assignments.

There's really nothing stressful going on. Then why the hell am I wanting so much solitude.

Forget that while I was home, I was alone with my ipod, phone and laptop uninterrupted from 11pm till about 3am daily. I tweeted, listened critically to all the newly added songs and thought a bit about everything. I even sat on the balcony one night- Denny Crane & Alan Shore style.  Forget that I fought really hard for that solitude- setting my instant messenger appearances to permanently invisible on "pidgin". During the day, my phone was also often set to offline mode. When it was however on the network, I went ahead to refuse to pick calls from numbers that weren't stored among my contacts. I wanted to be away from many people…and I won the solitude battle.

Now, I'm here. I do enjoy hanging out with my friends. Maybe I even love em…#nohomo.. We really do have rad times and we think along the same line often times and have similar priorities.

Besides them however, there's the other random bunch who I have to get along with. Don't go jumping into any conclusions. I'm generally cool with people and I try to respect everyone and live peaceably with everyone. I've learnt not to be prejudicial or any of that shit. However, they're still the random bunch. I think it’s the random bunch that's itching me and my guys tonight. But what the hell, there's not much we can do. #torresshrug!

I AM NOT A GEEK.

Over the years, I have continually had to fight off and correct the notion that people have of me being a geek. People often say that self discovery's a bitch. But I've discovered that as it often is the case, the impression people have of us or the one we want people to have of us, is one of the determinants of who we discover ourselves to be.

I consider myself as a person who has the ability to recognize art.. Maybe I'm not good enough to become any form of artist. Ya, maybe I'm a by-product of art- I can't sing, I can't dance, I'm only just good on the snare drums, I can't act or make beats or any of all that shit. But I think I can recognize good stuff. And I'm really just cool with that. For this reason, I thought the world acclaimed and Oscar winning "Godfather" was a joke relative to Fools Die by the same author. Yeah, Godfather had all the suspense and action and a rad plot but #kanyeshrug. Its just and never can be compared to Fools Die or a critical art level.

The fact that I like deep opinionated art certainly shouldn't make me seem like a geek. The fact that I wear glasses on the other hand happens to. And its more baffling to me than anything. Why don’t people just understand that people who wear glasses are not essentially intelligent. They are just damn visually impaired. In my case and I'm sure in so many other cases, the visual impairment is hereditary. I don't wear glasses because I'm smart, I wear them coz I can't fucking see! Duh!  There are as many dumb people who wear glasses as there are smart ones. While I don't know how many A-students in my class, I'm sure majority of them do not damn wear glasses. Please, don't think I'm a geek because I wear glasses.

 I got my own desktop computer when I was in JS2. Yes, I know I got it off my dad by getting rad results but hey….. I got the PC and loaded it with all sorts of music, movies and more games.

I had games for morning time, afternoon, evening and night times. FYI, I played USM 98…that means Ultimate Soccer Manager 98!! 1998!

Then I had CM4, and all these other random games. I had FIFA 99, 2000, 2002 and 2004 on that desktop at one time or the other.

All I'm trying to say is that I play games just like everybody else. I currently have the FIFA 2011 demo. I'm sure there aren't many CU boys that have the game yet. I still have FIFA 07, FIFA 10 and FMs 07, 08 and 10 on my laptop. I played various GTA games. I'm an ardent soccer gamer - just like the average guy. I'm not a fucking Geek. I've spent over 17 days on the clock of my current FM 10 game. I don't spend my time reading and all that…I'm not a geek.

Finally, I love my footie. I watch football, argue football, play football and play football games. I'm enough of an outdoor guy. I'm not a geek. I check babes out, I hang out in Café at night, stab classes & even chapel. I dub assignments, fail tests….I go through everything every other random student goes through.

I'm thankful and proud of my good grades….but hell no, I'm a well adjusted regular who is blessed and privileged. I'm certainly not a geek.

Most of all, I tweet.

Dumb Stuff Said In School...

I honestly don't feel like blogging 2nyt.. I'm not too happy but anyhow, I've decided to post this from my facebook notes. Its some of the dumb stuff said by some of my friends in school. Enjoy!

1. Arogz:( Singing Jay Z's brrokly go hard) "Brooklyn, Brooklyn, Brooklyn, go hard"
    Ekiti:(Singing) Shitta, Shitta, Shitta!!!
2. Kester: Children are bad goods! (Its impossible in economics for goods to be bad…Thaz y 

    they're regarded as goods)

3. A.Y: Is your Ice-cream cold?
4. Shey Dublin is in Irish?- Oyinkan
5. Did the light just came?- Kester.
6. Na so I heard- Kester.
7. Don't bother teaching me now, U'll teach me in the exam hall- Obehi
8. Lani: Oh Lord! Shit! Gerrard is injury!
    Arogz: Guy, how far u nau? How can Gerrard be injury! Rita Baba!!!
    Lani: No, no, I meant to say Gerrard is in injury!!!!
9. These people have been certificated- Registrar.
10. There are lights in some rooms- Ayobammy.
11. Laju: There's one drinks remaining!!!!
12. Your nose are small- Osita
13. Where is d great wall of China? - A.Y
14. Carry your everything that is yours- Laju
15. Osita: A.Y, what's the recovery key for HP laptops?
       A.Y: What? Key?
       Oh!! The button! I think its F-something!
16. I'm not even remorse about it- Lase.
17. Oh God! Osita, u've made me have slit in my dress now.- Lani.
18. Laju has grown shorter- Santi.
19. You'll get to class disorientated- Laju
20. I don't even know where my glasses is- Santi.
21. The hotness of the place- Lani
22. You should have kept it in my locker when you buyed it- Osita.
23. Kester: What time is 312 tomorrow?
      Laju: Its by 12
      Kester: Tank God.
      Osita: Its thank, not tank!
24. I'm just disorientated- Lani.

25. Saparo, u have a junior sister, are they twins? - Mogbo.

My School People!
Source: www.facebook.com/lolaking

NEPA BRING THE LIGHT!

All the gadgets...no lyt to power em...smh..
Source: 123next.com

Choi! I honestly can't remember for how long we haven't had power supply. I think its two weeks though. They took it while I watched Chelsea's second match of the season. That wasn't so long ago no? 

Anywho, while its generally become bearable, each passing day just makes me want to rush away from home even more. Yeah, we do use the generator for at least six hours everyday and I sneak it on in the afternoons when I absolutely have to recharge my phone, laptop and i-pod but mehn, its frustrating how I have to jump out of bed once they turn on the gen at 6am just to maximize every minute of gen-time. Then go on to sleep from about 10:30am till 3:30pm, when my wait for 7:00pm begins again.

I've been telling popsy to buy one of those small generators we can rock during the day or get an inverter. Its becoming unbearable mehn. Its like my life is on hold and I can't do anything. No project, no downloads, little blogging....hiss....choi...I'm really getting near the edge.

I know there's no need to go on a barrage about how the lack of power supply is one of the major causes of some of Nigeria's biggest problems. I'm sure there are enough articles on that. But right now, I really don't care about Nigeria's problems, I want my own problem solved!

When you run out of money because you go to the cinemas almost everyday for over a week just because you don't wanna get bored... and still have to spend your money on diesel...it does get frustrating..

And ya, I still call em Nepa...all these new names are not for me. I still call Zain, Celtel. #random.

NEPA BRING THE LIGHT!!!

LIGHT UP NIGERIA...!!!

She Loves Me, She Loves Me Not???

Hello dear,


Its been over a week since I last saw you and I must confess that you've honestly popped in and out of my mind.
That said, as the days have gone by, u've indeed spent less and less time in my thoghts. Some say absence makes the heart grow fonder, others say, "out of sight is out of mind." Either way, there's bound to be a feeling whenever we don't see each other that much.


While the aftermath of your first visit left me puzzled and not knowing what to expect from your return into my life, you settled my nerves and helped me set expectations for what I was to expect from you. You made me love you all over again. You reassured me that I could lay my love on you as d Westlife guys would say. And I somewhat did. 


But last week for me, it was more than just being able to see you again, it was all about me being able to hug and hold you tight again. Never mind that we didn't kiss or do anything "romantic" as such, Just being able to hold you when you were stressed out and you sitting on my laps coz you were tired...those were my special moments. Moments you created. 


In the days after, I wanted 2 hear from you...maybe that was my undoing. Maybe I was too expectant. But who can blame me eh? That's how its supposed 2 be when you love someone. 
And so I thought to myself, "just what if she doesn't feel like I do? I'll be goddamed mehn! I've gotta stop"
So, maybe I don't love you anyless...I can't love you less... I just can show you I love you less....

But I rili do love you and think about you and want to kiss you and all that and all that. I just need to be sure we're on the same page and I'm not in a #jonzingworld!

And no, I'm not insecure, I'm rili just curious...#crossroads.