She Loves Me, She Loves Me Not???

Hello dear,


Its been over a week since I last saw you and I must confess that you've honestly popped in and out of my mind.
That said, as the days have gone by, u've indeed spent less and less time in my thoghts. Some say absence makes the heart grow fonder, others say, "out of sight is out of mind." Either way, there's bound to be a feeling whenever we don't see each other that much.


While the aftermath of your first visit left me puzzled and not knowing what to expect from your return into my life, you settled my nerves and helped me set expectations for what I was to expect from you. You made me love you all over again. You reassured me that I could lay my love on you as d Westlife guys would say. And I somewhat did. 


But last week for me, it was more than just being able to see you again, it was all about me being able to hug and hold you tight again. Never mind that we didn't kiss or do anything "romantic" as such, Just being able to hold you when you were stressed out and you sitting on my laps coz you were tired...those were my special moments. Moments you created. 


In the days after, I wanted 2 hear from you...maybe that was my undoing. Maybe I was too expectant. But who can blame me eh? That's how its supposed 2 be when you love someone. 
And so I thought to myself, "just what if she doesn't feel like I do? I'll be goddamed mehn! I've gotta stop"
So, maybe I don't love you anyless...I can't love you less... I just can show you I love you less....

But I rili do love you and think about you and want to kiss you and all that and all that. I just need to be sure we're on the same page and I'm not in a #jonzingworld!

And no, I'm not insecure, I'm rili just curious...#crossroads.